venting =)

i just need to vent.

1. Baptism is in 2 days. and i have yet to write my testimony.
   (2nd July, Saturday. Service is at 5.30pm. At Bethany Evangelical Free Church, 133 Fidelio St. Anyone & everyone is invited! i'd be really happy to see you there, whoever you are..)


2. 1/3 of my musicians can't make it for service this saturday. so i have to come up with a new lineup of songs. and call up everyone who's involved - adults, youths, kids.


3. The worship team schedule i'm supposed to do up for the next 1/2 of the year is due. no, actually its overdue. and the next 1/2 of the year begins effectively.. in 1 day's time?


4. Then there's the EFC All Asia Conference worship slot. its in september, but well. the youth team needs practice. and we don't even have 10 saturdays to practice from now til november, what with normal worship slots and all. so we're starting.. this saturday?


5. FOC is in 5 days. and we've got tonnes of happy work to do! registrations, accomodation, groupings, information dissemination, camp booklets, contacting speakers, acquiring sufficient facilities, making sure we have games materials, planning games(!).. wah.. haha.. crazy lar. but fun. and the Lord has been so good :)


6. After FOC will be preparation for matriculation fair. am sitting on the comm representing bizad.. cos..no one else is.. free?


7. Then after that will be preparation for the Bizad Orientation Week.. helping out with manpower/councillor/seniors recruitment issues. have been arrowed vice-chair of the manpower subcomm cos everyone else is working..


8. After which will be preparations for the Social Entrepreneurship Forum, on the 13th of August. i've been arrowed secretary of the comm. but haven't been doing much cos of other commitments. feel really quite bad abt it since i gave my word to help out in sem1.. and moreover, its quite a big thing for a worthwhile cause.. and social entrepreneurship is something i wanna go into when i'm a bit older.. and more well off.. haha

and that's not even counting other stuff like how i need to help look after my dad also.. after that stupid motorcyclist tried to snatch the bag strapped to the back off my dad's bike while he was on a cycling trip in jb.. dad got flung off and consequently suffered a small skull fracture and blood clots and a cut to the back of his head. he's still so dizzy and can hardly even walk steadily.. don't know why the hospital discharged him also!

but even in these things, can really see God's hand in it.. despite all the busyness.. i've just got this strange feeling of joy in my heart.. although i can't physically see God's work.. and He's works in so many ways we cannot see or imagine.. i can't help but recognise His hand in how my life has turned out so far... and i can't help but KNOW that God is at work.. and i'm just happy living the life that i know He's got planned out ahead of even when i was born or conceived.. and God's just been reminding me that all i have to do is to trust and obey, to deny myself and to let Him take over... and as i learn to let go.. however gradually, He just increases this joy.. haha.. how ironic is that? yet how right it feels!

Trust and obey,
cos' there's no other way
to be happy in Jesus,
but to trust and obey!

to: my dear fellow FOC!!! comm-ers

phew! finally get the time to sit down and blog abt the nice weekend that's just passed..

had foc comm retreat on fri and sat at befc.. had a really nice time of fellowship and getting to know the other comm members better.. man it was hilarious.. had a great time of prayer and sharing and just talking nonsense on friday night, after a nice dinner at the used-to-be-daryn's-kitchen-but-now-called-deutsche-kitchen place.. like wert?! haha.. while listening to ian make a sick cow sing.. er.. i mean.. play the cello. most of us decided we were gonna knock out by 3plus am.. but yesyes ian gravitated towards the hall.. sat down behind the clavinova.. and the rest is as they say, history. more about that night on clare's and matt's blogs... saturday morning was spent planning planning planning.. work has suddenly ballooned for everyone, which i say is good.. cos now everyone knows everything thats going on in all the other portfolios, and we're communicating with each other more and can all help out with the workload. shout outs to brian, ruthann, james and vincent for coming down to encourage and support us!! :)

but yes. today, had dinner in the EAST! with alicia, matt, shawn and joce.. bak chor mee at bedok north. yum. and rojak. and popiah. and carrot cake. and honey sea coconut. and red ruby. and sugarcane. and barley for joce. hehe. oh fat. but but! alicia and i have come to the MARVELOUS conclusion that we should make shawn, joce, daph and clare the mcs for talentnight!!! muahahhaha! the perfect combi. shawn and joce can bicker, daph can do her "but shawn, your name.. you see, your name is not on the list! so shawn, what does that mean? *big innocent eyes*" thing.. and clare can just scold shawn non-stop for i dunno. for anything at all! hahhaha.. perfect! brilliant! no? hilarious. and alicia. THROW AROUND A LIVE BLACK CHICKEN FOR CAPTAIN'S BALL?!?!

so oh my dearest fellow comm members.. i really thank God for you guys..its such a pleasure working with you all.. am enjoying it immensely! here’s to more great times ahead! haha.. can't wait for wednesday... ! ;p (grace, do get well soon! william, oh what are we gonna do w/o you?)

carry me please...

there's this deadweight in my chest i just can't seem to get rid of.
its just so tiring carrying it around.
Lord, won't you take it from me?

You who are strong and mighty,
would You wrestle it away from Your stubborn child?
or shatter it to pieces, sweeping it away bit by bit?

oh Lord, because i don't think i can take it anymore
You know better than i do the hopes dreams yearning disappointments inadequacy pain
Lord, will You carry them for me?
Lord, will You carry me?

O_o

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

liar (NOT!)

*glare*

i figure i should post something (as well).

harrumph.

and if you're one of those (ok only one lar i'm sure, the rest of "those" would not react like that) going "sorry sorry sorry!", well, don't. you know i don't really mean that ;)




love ya'll! *muackz* (okok no physically fit physically fit blahblah.)
- lonesome ;p