i've found where i belong. [BCE Appreciation BBQ day]

finally, watching the musical for the first time today.. i FINALLY get this feeling of closure.. didn't understand when pple told me they couldn't imagine what they'd do for the next few free saturday mornings and all, still don't actually.. i mean, sleep lar! :p but watching the musical brought back all those thoughts and emotions i felt during the musical and all.. how i almost cried during the final performance in the middle of act 2 cos' i finally understood what it meant to keep my focus on God even while acting..

y'know.. 3 months ago, if you told me i'd act in a musical, i'd tell you not to be ridiculous. 3 months ago, if you told me i'd know so many pple from vcf, i'd laugh right in your face.. 3 months ago, if you told me i'd find close friends in uni, i'd have smiled disbelievingly.. uni wasn't a place to get to know pple.. bizad wasn't a place to cosy up with anyone.. (still isn't as far as i'm concerned..) but tonight at the bbq.. watching the musical for the first time.. i almost cried..

the great honour of serving Him in my church worship ministry, of acting in the musical.. the great joy of getting to know so many people, of crossing paths with some people.. and walking with others.. some for a short while, and some for longer.. and yet some with whom the shared journey has not come to the part of the road where our paths diverge.. ;p

i feel so fortunate, so blessed.. i came into uni dreading it, thinking i'd just get it over and done with.. but God's shown me that there's so so so much more to life than what i perceive.. and so so so many more riches in the life He's planned out for me. seeing them revealed a little more every day.. i never could have imagined or foresaw all the wonderful things He's done in my life so far.. i just want to cry.. i don't deserve it. through the good times and the bad, He has been there with me, showing me that whatever happens, i'll always have a reason to smile when He's around.. with Him, i can walk every step with confidence and assurance, with every footstep i take, i know my foot is planted on solid ground, even on this earth which floats in the middle of nowhere and is prone to cracking ever so often.. ( *waves a hand at all those geog students* yes i know thats technically incorrect but.)

i wish i could not sound so vague. but.. there's just so much i don't know how to say.

fellowship:
of sharing food [oh yummy bbq!!]. of sharing conversation [hehe..scandals and primary school photos]. of sharing thoughts. and dreams. of sharing prayers. and singing songs of worship and praise [knocking on heaven's door?!! here i am to worship?! hmmm]. of sharing talents [i still can't stop gushing abt the musicians]. of sharing lives. of sharing strength and joy. of sharing God's blessings. of loving each other. because He loves us.

why can't they see?!?!?!? what can be better than this?!?!life would be meaningless.. and hopeless..without God, who sent His Son, so precious, to die so that we might be able to come before God again, and face Him despite all our sinful ways.. that we might have the privilege to call God our Abba, and walk our walks without having to worry about a single thing, and just be happy in all circumstances as we abide in Him, just as He planned for us to... why would you settle for anything less?!?

with God, my heart is filled, my soul satisfied, and my stomach happy. =)

thank You.

i'll sing Your praises forever..
deeper in love with You..
here in Your courts where i'm close to Your throne,
i've found where i belong...